depressed. this is the low part. i fuck up every single good thing i have periodically. this gets me into trouble and kicked out alot. but whos to blame? is it the ones restricting me or my care free spirit that loves the thrill of the struggle? am i addicted to getting into tough spots that i have to survive and get my self out of, or do i just want the attention that follows. besides the side affects of bein free if only for a few hours, is the trouble that i get into not worth the few moments of freedom and careless actions any less fun ? am i the bad one for wanting to have fun and put my stress and boundries to the side? its not like im taking over the world and killing all in my way…its friends, its chill, its weed, its a drink or two, goodtimes…and then its over…simple really. to not want that should be rong. and to take that from someone simply because theyre not doing things your way should be a shame…all i want is to be free.