What do you do when all that kept you going makes you want to give up?

When the people who made you smile make you go through pain? When everything that was worth living for, just isn’t the same anymore? What do you fucking do? I don’t want fucking pity or people to worry about me. I’m self-destructive, I don’t deserve people trying to fix me. Fix the people around you, fix your life, fix yourself. Don’t waste your time trying to fix a selfish, depressed and broken girl like myself. You need her more than you need me. Just let me destroy all that’s left of me. Maybe that way your life will get back together again. The idea that I’m the cause of all this… Yes, you’d be much better off without me. I’m just too selfish to let you do so.